Fanvid: I'm Not Yours

[bop_radar]

Song: I'm Not Yours
Artist: Angus & Julia Stone
Fandom: Lip Service (Frankie/Cat)
Summary: Love = Loss
Warnings: Potentially triggery for depression (though personally I find it very calming)
Spoilers: Up to episode 1.6
Notes: This is what happens when you vid Lee's point of view for two months. This was a very experimental vid for me--it's more an associative exploration of a feeling, a certain point in the history of a relationship, rather than an exploration of all aspects of that ship. I played more with canon and with transitions than I usually do, and kind of just let my emotions lead me. It proved to be wonderful therapy after Some Time Around Midnight. For me, at least. For the rest of you, well, I don't know many people watching this show but if you feel inclined to watch pretty girls be epicly tragic at one another...

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[laurashapiro]

This is just gorgeous, Boppy! You've used the song so sensitively. That moment where the woman rolls over to the little grace note? I got shivers. (:

Delicious.

[bop_radar]

Thanks! :) I love getting lost in their music (Angus and Julia Stone) so it was a great pleasure to vid a track of theirs. I'm thrilled you enjoyed this, my little escapist vid!

[laurashapiro]

The woman's voice (Julia, I presume) is really striking, so childlike and yet so filled with emotion.

If this is how you do escapism, I can't wait to see your homework. (:

[bop_radar]

Ohhh homework! *geeks* I would love vidding homework! If only I knew what that was...

[laurashapiro]

I guess I think of homework as things like Vidding Boot Camp and Insane Vidding Project and the like. And also: haaaaaaaard vids that make me whiny. (:

[bop_radar]

Ahh, yes, got it! In that case, I don't think I'm very good at homework at all. :) I think I get more success floobing around on the timeline and waiting for pretty accidents to happen. :D

[laurashapiro]

"Floobing" is my new favorite word.

Your pretty accidents are the kind of thing that take me weeks to achieve, so yeah, I'd say it works for you.

[bop_radar]

Floobing is freeing! (Especially after two months of slaving over every goddamn tweak in 'Midnight'--that one did NOT come easy.)

But yeah... I remember sitting in dualbunny's Structure Panel and being fascinated by what everyone said but thinking to myself 'ha! I just fling stuff onto the timeline haphazardly and shuffle it around until it comes good' The longer I keep vidding, the less structured my initial approach becomes. Probably because I find it so much more fun that way. :)

[laurashapiro]

I have learned to embrace a more freeform process as well, but I find it doesn't always work for me. I need a certain amount of planning and structure to feel comfortable, because apparently I'm just that anal.

Floobing is still the best word ever, though.

[bop_radar]

That makes sense! I have this theory that one reason it works for me is it circumvents my critical voice a bit. Since I have something to keep my logic brain busy with while I'm vidding (finding the narrative, sometimes even what the vid is about, as I go) and since I'm enjoying watching the accidents happen, there's less space for criticism. When I plan, I tend to spend so much of my time arguing with myself or worrying that it's the wrong thing I can become crippled. I still wouldn't ever freeform my way through an entire 'big' vid though, probably--at some point I'd definitely impose and lock down a structure.

Floobing is a good word. ::nods::

[laurashapiro]

Interesting! I have great flow during the planning process; it's at the editing table that I start arguing with myself. (:

[bop_radar]

And arguing can be useful too, of course! :) supacat is trying to get me to understand the difference between my logic brain arguments and my emotional self-slamming 'this is all shit, you're all shit' stuff that often seems to accompany it. Difficult! :( But I'm trying! And meanwhile floobing off away from either of them when I can, as in this vid. ;)

[ellie-i.livejournal.com]

Oh, wow; well, there are Frankie and Cat, right there. I'd love to pick out a single moment, but it all comes together as a rather fluid, lovely little entity that I'd hate to separate out. Heartbreak, heartbreak, almost heartbreak, little redemption, little hearbreak: all in a row. Gah, loved this, and most definitely saved. ♥

[bop_radar]

Thank you so much! Lovely to hear from a fan of theirs! They are so heartbreak-y, it's true. I'm glad this rang truthfully for you, because i know I played around a lot with the narrative (and left out Frankie's personal history angst). I kind of zenned out on their angstfest. :)