Angst

[bop_radar]

I'm all melodrama today. My external harddrive has died, taking with it my vidding files, music and much television. I'm kind of still in shock. And mourning. No vidding for me in the short term... *weeps*

The good news is that I've got a lot of vid reccing that I've been wanting to do for ages so expect many recs in the near future! In fact, I can't wait any longer to rec a couple of vids in particular.

The buzz around lim's multifandom Us vid about fandom has been incredible, so most of you will probably not need any introduction to it. I'm still adding my voice to the chorus in support of this remarkable accomplishment. It pleases both my vid-geek and my meta-geek selves. :-) This is a vid that prompts reflection, that encourages the viewer to make their own connections. It's a chance to step back and think about why we're here, what we love about it, and how all this evolved...

The other vid which has blown me away in the last week, is bradcpu's Living Dead Girl, a character study vid for Faith from BtVS/AtS. Faith is one of my favourite Jossverse characters, and this vid felt so perfectly true to her character. The creative vision and structure is strikingly original and entirely successful--watching this vid is kind of like getting jacked straight into Faith's subconscious. It's at the opposite extreme from lim's vid--visceral rather than reflective, it is a dark and dizzying journey into slayer consciousness. It takes you 'under the skin' of a character in that way that great fanart can. I've watched it many, many times and certain moments still make my heart leap every time.

Speaking of fandom and the way it takes over our minds, I need to vent about my nightmare last night. So, apparently I'm deeply anxious about Lee and Kara (surprise surpise *g*) and my subconscious decided to take on the battle last night by allowing me to face the worst possible scenario. This included deadly infectious diseases, self-sacrifice, rape, cannibalism, disfiguration by fire, pregnancy, enslavement, getting frakked by Cylons (both actually and metaphorically) and continued complete misunderstanding of one another. Dear Gods, may this dream not be prophetic, for it was disturbing in the extreme! *shudders*

I think I'm going to go watch David Tennant be cute to cheer myself up ... when does Who start again?!

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[moonwitch.livejournal.com]

"I think I'm going to go watch David Tennant be cute to cheer myself up ... when does Who start again?!"

I don't know but I hope it's soon. ;_;

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Hope so!

[skuf.livejournal.com]

Yay, vid recs - looking forward to them (have seen "Us", and it is indeed something else)!

Sorry about the harddrive :o/

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Thanks! These things happen, but ... arrrrggghhh!

[myownghost.livejournal.com]

bummer about the hard drive crash. i once lost a bunch of extremely important stuff that way. it's like having a little stroke. :/

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Eeep! Yes, it's horrid! I'm coping with it only be distracting myself and employing denial.

[duskwillow.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
Oh man that sucks so much about your EHD. Is it dead dead? Did you ask people in the shop if it can be helped and some files saved?

Thanks for vid recs. :) I'll check them out.

Dr. Who will start in UK on March 24th.

And EEK!!! That's one scary BSG dream!!!

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

I am going to approach the supplied, but I don't hold out great hope.

Oh, March 25--YAY!!!

[m-agda.livejournal.com]

So sorry for your loss. I feel for yuou there.

Now have fun with David Tennant.

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *g*

[serenography.livejournal.com]

Oh, man...that sucks about your hard drive. I don't have my stuff backed up anywhere because I've been procrastinating, but I think I'll make that a goal for this week.

Thanks for that vid rec. It's absolutely amazing. I wish she had a list of all the fandoms she clipped in there, there were a few I couldn't catch. The technical skill alone just blows me away.

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Mmm, yes, I recommend backing up! I do have some of my stuff backed up, but not the five seasons of ripped SV. :-(

Yes, I had the same thought about the fandoms--there were a few I couldn't catch either, but it really is exceptional.

[talitha78.livejournal.com]

That sucks about your external hard drive. And it wasn't even that old, right? Bummer.

And thanks for that Faith vid rec. That was amazing!

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

No, it wasn't that old. *grumbles* I'm going to try and talk to the supplier, and in all honesty I'll probably splash out on a new one when I get my next pay because I am just THAT ADDICTED. But it's still a huge pain in the proverbial.

[norwich36.livejournal.com]

*Hugs you tight* I hope some files can be salvaged from your hard drive--that really sucks!

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Thank you!! I will attempt salvage this week. If not, five seasons of ripped SV are gone.

[kristiinthedark.livejournal.com]

Oh noes, Boppy! I'm sorry about your harddrive! That sucks. :( *pets you*

Very cool Faith vid, though! I love getting inside her head like that.

Nightmares about BSG? *pets you some more* ♥

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Yeah, the vid was super-cool! And oh, yes, WOE with the harddrive and the nightmares. Why couldn't I have had that nice dream where I was Lee and I saved Kara from a ghost? *sighs nostalgicly*

[sarmoti.livejournal.com]

Oh no, hard drive! So sorry :(
That reminds me though that I have a ton of files I should backup too, yikes.

This included deadly infectious diseases, self-sacrifice, rape, cannibalism, disfiguration by fire, pregnancy, enslavement, getting frakked by Cylons (both actually and metaphorically) and continued complete misunderstanding of one another.

Unfortunately, I think I've read that fic. :P

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Back up! Back up! I recommend it. *nods*

Unfortunately, I think I've read that fic. :P
I probably have too... but I'm disturbed that my OWN mind came up with that. Traitor!

[dualbunny.livejournal.com]

::offers many hugs for the harddrive and the nightmare::

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Ohhhh, thank you! *trembles*

[bzoppa.livejournal.com]

oh no...

I've been resisting the whole vid phenomenon for years. You talking intelligently about it is just one more nail in the coffin of my close-mindedness towards it.

I'm not succumbing quite yet, but I might actually start watching when people post and link to videos. Maybe. Possibly if they have your stamp of approval.

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Oh, you've resisted vids?! *seizes challenge* It's true that some people enjoy them more than others, and there's a whole range of quality in vids (as there is in fic, art, anything) but they can give me so much joy. I think they can be a unique way of exploring concepts, characters, narratives or imagery.

I'll be reccing in a few different fandoms over the next few weeks, so I'll try and coax you into watching! ;-)

[attaccabottoni.livejournal.com]

Yikes. You have my sympathies. I've had my laptop's internal hard drive dying on me twice in the last ten months alone, so I've learned my lesson on regular backups, esp. while the last 10 months were also spent (1) working on my thesis, (2) getting into the SV fandom, and (3) compelled by #2 to cave in and compulsively download/watch vids.

Will watch them later, but thanks for the recs! I usually stick to SV vids only, but I just might expand my horizons. :D

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Thank you for your sympathy! I had a lot of stuff backed up in various places, but my vidding files are simply too enormous to back up anywhere else, so they're gone.

I stuck to SV vids to begin with too, until my addiction just grew and grew and now I'm watching vids in fandoms I have never been into and probably will never be in to. It's a disease, I'm telling you! ;-)

[ender24]

omg, offers you my empathy for the harddrive thing!
that makes me all worry for my own one, damn, what if that is gone!!!??
I have some stuff, that is only backed up there!!!!!!!
*panics*
I need a second external!!!
also, I should back up all my collected vids online as well!!!
good thing, my sv stuff is all secured in all ways, CD roms, harddrive and online.

[bop-radar.livejournal.com]

Thank you! *hugs*
All of my SV fandom-related stuff was backed up elsewhere, including vids. But I lost my own vidding files and the ripped smallville dvds. *weeps* I just couldn't afford another external. One day...

I'm trying to be zen about it but it's hard!

I think, I would flip over...

[ender24]

and have you tried to rescue your harddrive??
ok, maybe if the rescue is much more expensive than ripping and dl all the stuff again, then its not worth it, but if its been for example all the vids that are not available anymore...*shudders*

*hugs you again*