Also, being creative IS selfish. It's really like intellectual/artistic masturbation. It is, isn't it!
I'm not sure (at least right now) if it would be therapeutic for me to destroy my finished work (appealing as it is!). I think there is greater strength in being able to look back at where you've come from and being able to accept imperfections. Most of the time once my work is actually finished I can do that! I just stop myself creating new stuff a lot.
I had a really strong reaction to your comment, which is probably a sign of how screwed my brain is, but I definitely still have a huge part of me that rejects any idea of such a 'calling'. Other people have those! Not me. ;) Yet, if VVC taught me one thing it's how much vidding means to me! I think, truthfully, it SCARED me how much. And I'm trying to mentally work out how I be true to myself in this regard while also juggling all the rest of life.
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Date: 2010-09-20 06:00 am (UTC)It is, isn't it!
I'm not sure (at least right now) if it would be therapeutic for me to destroy my finished work (appealing as it is!). I think there is greater strength in being able to look back at where you've come from and being able to accept imperfections. Most of the time once my work is actually finished I can do that! I just stop myself creating new stuff a lot.
I had a really strong reaction to your comment, which is probably a sign of how screwed my brain is, but I definitely still have a huge part of me that rejects any idea of such a 'calling'. Other people have those! Not me. ;) Yet, if VVC taught me one thing it's how much vidding means to me! I think, truthfully, it SCARED me how much. And I'm trying to mentally work out how I be true to myself in this regard while also juggling all the rest of life.
Thanks for replying. :)