Lip Service ... Episode 2.2 postmortem

[bop_radar]

I have spent the last days in a haze, wondering how I could possibly write what is in my heart, concerning my characters.

Now I don't have to because m_a_r_i_k_s gave it vid form in Movie Screens. So I can just sob my heart out to it instead.

I am in a state of acute grief for Cat. It sounds fake to write that, but it's true. I dream about her, I cry, her face haunts me.

There is nothing that I wish to say about the show or the characters in words. I have anger at the writing decision but it's irrelevant--I don't wish to express it either in words. If I ever say anything about the show again it will be in vid form only. Words are too hollow and empty.

I won't be watching the show any more.

Comments

[mresundance]

D: That's just horrible. I'm so sorry that happened. I know how you feel though; I've had characters I loved die in the past and it is horrible. You do grieve. It may seem like a silly thing, but it's not.

[bop_radar]

Thank you so much! ((())) It means a lot. I made a decision not to be ashamed of my grief. As strange as some people might find it, I think the fact that we feel deeply for a character, work or ship is actually very precious. I don't want to numb the pain away, actually ... but it's very very sharp. The way they did it was particularly cruel and abrupt, especially considering the show was originally built around the Frankie/Cat love story. I'll be haunted a long time, I think.