I don't think I shied away from the destructive nature of their relationship so if that's part of what you saw then that was deliberate.
You most certainly didn't, which is one thing that I find very compelling about the vid and the very tight Lee POV you keep all the way through (and you do it so well technically as well).
what I was wanting in part to explore here was the pain of being caught in a love that overwhelms you and destroys you and breaks you
Mission accomplished! This is also where I realise again that I can no longer connect with the narrative of BSG on a purely "story" level. These days it's always about the SHOW and how I feel about that. Watching the vid was the first time in months or rather years that I've been able to connect with Lee inside of his story in canon instead of looking at it from the outside with an analytical distance.
I think some of what I have trouble articulating is how pointless I find a lot of the destructive behaviour from a narrative point of view. It didn't go anywhere nor have any pay off; it just got worse and worse to the point of being almost pointless, if that makes sense. And that was something I needed to "hear" from someone else, someone who sees Lee in a way similar to the way I used to, someone who's POV I could connect with through shared experiences.
(I'm pretty sure I'm not making much sense, so here, have a pretty Lee icon instead *g* And you made an exceptional vid, Boppy, both on a technical level and on an emotional one.)
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You most certainly didn't, which is one thing that I find very compelling about the vid and the very tight Lee POV you keep all the way through (and you do it so well technically as well).
what I was wanting in part to explore here was the pain of being caught in a love that overwhelms you and destroys you and breaks you
Mission accomplished! This is also where I realise again that I can no longer connect with the narrative of BSG on a purely "story" level. These days it's always about the SHOW and how I feel about that. Watching the vid was the first time in months or rather years that I've been able to connect with Lee inside of his story in canon instead of looking at it from the outside with an analytical distance.
I think some of what I have trouble articulating is how pointless I find a lot of the destructive behaviour from a narrative point of view. It didn't go anywhere nor have any pay off; it just got worse and worse to the point of being almost pointless, if that makes sense. And that was something I needed to "hear" from someone else, someone who sees Lee in a way similar to the way I used to, someone who's POV I could connect with through shared experiences.
(I'm pretty sure I'm not making much sense, so here, have a pretty Lee icon instead *g* And you made an exceptional vid, Boppy, both on a technical level and on an emotional one.)